another cup, for being a fool

once in a while...
a deep breath taken...
just to awaken...
my subtle-restrained mind...

staring blankly...
as i grab the warmth...
and move my lips to the tip of the cup...
trying to inject some dose...
just to awaken...
my subtle-restrained mind...

tired about things in the past
that imprisoned me
to a certain bitter situation
haunting me like a grim reaper with a scythe
cut me so deep... and i bleed...
so deep that i can even smell on my spilled blood..

ah... another cup please...
i wanted to stay awake...
i dont want to fall a sleep...
coz i dont wanna be caught off guard...
dreaming about my past...
dreaming about us...
and about that moment...
for me being so foolish...
to let go a true love...
in exchange of a fake diamond...

another cup please...
for being so stupid...
that i have to stay awake...
on so many restless night...

~013009
Nevins G. Manafe